Lazy days, and impending winters...

Sitting here on the couch, watching Ace Ventura in HD, so I have some time to chill. I'm enjoying myself, relaxing, spending some time watching Jim Carrey with Cannibal Corpse and forgetting how badly I missed some things in this movie when I watched it as a kid. I'm also thinking about the family, thinking how things can be better, things that need to be improved, things that need to be forgotten about. Just wondering how I can even get my life back together.

Allow me to explain, things have been rough, I can not deny that. I've been dealing with the fallout of being laid off for almost a year now, it hasn't been roses all the time. I'm almost to midterms in my first semester in college. I'm stressing hard trying to keep high grades, good thing is, it's going well, so the stress isn't as much as first anticipated. I'm doing great, and unfortunately, I'm not doing as well in the whole dealing with my issues over the layoff. Contrary to the school of thought my wife has, it's not just because of being laid off, I understand that it wasn't my fault, that doesn't mean it didn't suck. Trying to deal with the thoughts and psychological loss of being laid off hasn't come to fruition yet. To put it mildly, I'm a whole basket full of crazy, and my family has bore the brunt of that.

I'm feeling miserable about the damage I've done, and it will take time to rebuild, but I'm starting the process of that, or at least trying to. I'll keep you updated on that as well as other observations about the fam and Roo's health and growth (she is doing SO amazing!)

PS: To keep myself busy I've been working like hell around the house, just yesterday I replaced the furnace filter, filled the snowblower with gas and oil mix as well as started it up and tuned it back to an even mix. I also put in a new light fixture to replace the old florescent fixture above the sink.

So I guess I've been working on things around the house to avoid dealing with things. But then again, some of the stuff needed done.