20: The trickery of the Goddess...

WSo we went to the 20 week ultrasound, myself, my wife and Justeen. Looking at the lil person. Seeing all the cool stuff and the functioning of everything, and it all looks good. So far as we know. It kept moving in every direction it could, didn't really want to be seen we guess.

But we don't really know if its a boy or girl, but at this point, we don't know, its not looking good for the boy though.

You could just feel the mood drop in that room today. I don't have the picture to post as of yet, but I can definitely tell its not lookin good, either that or he'll have to really work on his personality.

We'll have to wait another 3-4 weeks, til August 13th to find out for sure, and here's hoping the parts come into their own. Whatever they may be.

#19: The Good Morning Dance

So, once in awhile, in the morning, I wake up as most guys do. Harder than Chinese Algebra.

So here I decide to try to start things, and its going good as far as I can tell, she's moaning her pleasures, writhing around, and losing articles of clothing and such. Then the cat makes her way in the room through the partially closed door. Smart ass cat! Got the door open even though it was all but latched.

So then I toss the cat out, and resume the play, and by this point, its about to get on with no strings attached. Then kiddo wakes up.

And thus is the story of my mornings when I try to get us going to our happy place.

#18: The gushing starts!

So over the last few days I've discovered that baby "Cashew" likes the sound of my voice. So much so that he tries to bust out of the womb just to hear me! I have a daddy's boy. The fun thing I love to do is get him to move around wherever my hand may be.

Much to my wife's dismay. She hates this game because inevitably he ends up pushing on her bladder. It's just so interesting to watch my wife get bigger, and watch him get his own personality. So much fun!

I guess what makes me happiest is that I got to start a lot earlier with this one as far as the whole talking to the fetus goes. I got started with my daughter by reading Where The Wild Things Are. While I will read that book to Cashew, I think I might start with liner notes, Blender, and car magazines. Maybe get my kid to like cars and music as much as I do.

#17: Assorted Thoughts

So, I just got done with a great bout of nookie, very splashy, and very erotic. Then I took a post-nookie shower. And had a snack.

And then I got to thinking, this kid has full brain function at this point, it can create thoughts, emotions, etc. So I'm thinking, what if this kid can recall what its like when we have sex?

Dude, wouldn't that trip you the hell out if you reverted back to the womb in a hypnotic state, and remember bouncing around while your dad did it doggystyle to your mom?

These are the kinds of things I think when I hit the cottage cheese. BTW, hit the Blue Bunny 4%, its next to heaven!

So, what to talk about besides pregnant boobs and nookie?

#16: Some shit just never ends!

Ok, I recalled the last time we were pregnant, we both lost our jobs, and we had to move back in with my mom.

Well thankfully enough, this time I won't have to move back in with my mom. But I'm still losing my job come August 18th. I'm none too happy about this shit. But at least I'll be a month shy of three years. I might get something for my trouble. I'd hope.

I talked to the chairman of the unit out at the Local today, and I found out that the company didn't want to give us shit. In effects bargaining, we got hosed. No continuation of benefits, no health insurance, no dental, no nothing. We only get our incentive cashed out on our last check. Not cool. I was hoping to at least see the beginning of the year so I could cash out my vacation...but I guess I'll get three days cashed out to me when I get laid off.

And to top all this bullshit, the cunt that used to be my wife's best friend is up to her bullshit again. "Waaaa, I lost my child and they get theirs" "Waaaaa, I hope they experience what I went through." My only response to this will be my fist in her chest if I ever see her in public, and hope it brings her closer to her lost one. You wish death on my unborn child, you fucking die!

Whats the encore? Does my house explode while I'm remodeling? Does the wheel fall off my car? Where does it end?

Oh wait, thats right, shit rolls downhill, and I, unfortunately, am at the bottom....again.


And the bottom drops out.

#15: The Libido Returns...not for the faint of heart.

So, I've been complaining a bit about not getting any. Life issues have compounded on each other, and sex is a great tension release. But when wifey isn't in the mood, it ain't happening, no matter how down in the shitter I am. But this Friday, I got my wish.

Her libido came back by storm.

Friday, 6:15 A.M: I'm laying in bed and wake up, for what reason I don't know. But I decide to get cuddly with my wife. Something is telling me I need to fuck NOW! Little did I know her subconscious was planting ideas in my sleep. I woke up hard as a rock, and decided to rub her back for awhile, with a firm hand. And then I started rubbing her belly, as she likes sometimes when she is pregnant and its been stretching alot lately as well, so it was a bit tender. I kept a watch for signs she was into it. I started rubbing her pelvic bone, just above her pussy. She moved a bit to get her panties off. And it was on like Donkey Kong on speed. I started playin with it. I went down and licked that shit...and I definetly could not hear a complaint on my facial hair at that point. I could have started a brush fire between the two of us!

And then, it was on. Now the rest I'm not going to play out for you like that. But DAMN it was a great way to start a Friday, despite the early hour. And the tiredness at work...which really sucked because it was hot as hell!

#14: Light dawns on marble forehead...

Well, finally I think she admits it. Regardless of what she may say or think or act about her new state. She can finally not really say she is fat. After putting the 10w4d and 6w pics together, she can see the noticeable difference in her belly....and so did I! Wow. Very sexy.

So hopefully we can put the fat baby to bed and just marvel at the form she takes. I hope to have an update soon on the glucose test...

#13: The first ultrasound

So my wife had to get a glucose test ("Damn family history of diabetes!" she says)...a rectal exam, and several other exams and tests, and then she finally got the thing stuck up her cooter to look at the little sprite....and here is the little "Cashew"

so so cute! melts my heart!

#12 Beltaine Fun!

Mental note: Don't tell anyone at a Beltaine ritual that you are expecting.

Long story short: Beltaine is a Pagan fertility blessing ritual, to bless those who are already pregnant, as well as those who wish for enhanced fertility, and to bless plant life with fruitfulness.

The Full Story:

The Beltaine gathering yesterday (5/17) was great, awesome location, great weather, the element of the East was abundant as well (very windy!) All were having a great time with wine, strawberries and chocolate dipping sauce. Don't worry, the kids had water.

Then guess who got tied to the maypole after the first part of the circle was over? Go on! Guess!

Me.

Yeah, then I get an apple cut off my head by my wife. It's good to be the king! It was a great day, fun was had by all, and I think even today I'm going to try to get out of the house because its so damn nice today again! Much blessing for Beltaine...despite it being late! Still just as fun to mark it.

By the way, say "It's good to be the king" at a gathering or somewhere, and see who laughs...

Those who don't, feel sorry for them.

#11: Telling the other side of the family

So today, we got the iron-on transfer shirt on Justeen, and took her with us to the family get together for Mother's Day. On the front it said "I've got a secret!" and on the back it had a pretty decal that said "I'm going to be a big sister"

Mixed reactions were had. But most of it was positive. My mom was happy this time! She was just wondering how I felt about it, and if I was excited, considering the cost of almost every freakin thing has gone up since Justeen was born.

To which I said, I'm glad for this child.

But, the cost of everything and the added cost of raising a child five years after the fact is going to be stressful, hard, and trying. But I'm not that worried about it. All I'm worried about is having the job to pay all the bills. And that the bills get paid off.

Maybe it is time to look into that second job...and figuring out the new family dynamic.